Cancer Sucks

 

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Well, it’s been a while again and I have to apologize for being absent so abruptly during my vlogmas time last Christmas

If you have read my blog back then, which was only been a few months and haven’t written anything since then, that I left it off with that I had received a diagnosis of the possibility of breast cancer. 

Well it was and I have taken care of what I needed to do these past couple months. I ended up having ductal carcinoma in my left breast, which was a large mass, and it meant that the left breast needed to be removed. Ductal carcinoma normally stays within the milk ducts of your breast and that’s what mine did. By removing the whole breast I was eliminating the cancer and any possibility of the cancer spreading to the other breast. I had very large breast, my cup size was a H, and there is no way to do a reconstruction where they could get the removed breast to match the other side. Now I could possibly have a breast reduction done on the right side and then make the left side reconstructed to match that side but to be honest, I did not want to go through any more surgeries then I have these past couple years. I decided to have a double mastectomy done  and I have no regrets whatsoever.  Best decision I’ve ever made.

For years I went around with all that weight in the front of me, you just live with it, that’s what I had done. Now that I have been released from all that weight in the front of me, which was a total of 8 pounds, it feels wonderful. I’ve feel like I have been freed in someway. And by removing the breasts, I have no chance of it ever coming back again in the other breast. I do not need to do any treatments...... no radiation...... no chemotherapy. 

That right there is the best part of all of it. I was more than willing to go through treatment again to get rid of the cancer but I really didn’t want to. I thank God everyday. 

So my update is: I am right now cancer free, I’m cancer free from the breast cancer definitely. And I’m cancer free from the endometrial cancer also. Let me tell ya cancer plays such a head trip on you. There’s just no way around it, it just does. I think I handled it better this time than I did the first time just for the fact that I have been through it once before. 

But also all those old fears and anxiety that I went through with the first time flared up. 

I did not freeze up this time but I was still absent from posting.

Main reason was in order for me to deal with this in my head, I needed to stay present and focused on healing, in all ways.

Thats what I did, and now I'm in a good place and ready to get back to creating a better life.

That’s my update health wise

I’m collecting my finished objects, works I’m presently doing, future projects and anything else I can think of to share soon  

Till then 

Take care and don’t forget to do your monthly breast check and annual mammogram

Kat